bad lungs

Hey everyone.
I officially received my accepted letters through email today, which was nice! I was starting to grow a little concerned they were going to forget. Looking through the attachments i grew a little anxious due to unforeseen payments i’ll have to make, that weren’t listed on their website, but living in America i’ve learned to always expect to have to attend to hidden payments for absolutely everything — doesn’t mean it doesn’t bum me the hell out every time, know what i mean? Im not saying its only America — it could just as well happen in Denmark too.
Either way — i can’t wait to get started, as i’ve been saying for a long time now.

I’ve been lucky enough to have been off from work since Thursday. I took my free day on Friday — it was a Christmas gift from work that we could take one day off in the year without it counting towards our severely meagre vacation or sick time. On top of that today was Martin Luther King day and so was also a day off from work; so i got a good four days off and it was almost perfect, definitely needed. Unfortunately today i’ve spent in utter pain. Unable to move without shooting pains in my lungs and chest. Im stubborn as a mule, and likely equally stupid when it comes to advice — i refused a trip to the emergency room and a visit to the doctor, because i know they’ll want to run any test they can even if its unnecessary. If i were in Denmark or in Texas — i’d have gone, but i will NOT pay for medical help unless i’m at deaths door if I’m in neither place. However, i’ll ask Jack to go if he’s not feeling well. Haha. I’m dreading a very tough day tomorrow if i don’t feel any better. I have time for one sick day but i don’t want to use it unless it’s an emergency or something. This is exactly why i hate this kind of lifestyle — i don’t like having to be accountable to someone else and have someone else decide what i can and can’t do. It doesn’t bode well for my soul. How do i get through it? I remind myself that its temporary.
Bring on 2020 when i start a new path!

Needless to say, today i’ve been immobile and useless. I genuinely struggle to sit and do nothing, i cannot do it! As we all do when we know we have days off coming up, i had plans and things i’d like to get done. I wanted to start working on my Denmark video, write some and read some. I wanted to pack and so many other things. I got a lot of cleaning done, worked out and edited a few photos, we even ventured out into the baltic night last night to film time-lapses videos, but I’m never satisfied, do you know what i mean? I want everything on my list completed to feel like i accomplished something. We both managed to catch up on some rest from our trip though, finally — and really thats what we really needed.

girl in cowboy hat

home for christmas

Hello everyone!

I am home for christmas!!

I hope you’re all doing really well. Denmark is gloomy and laddened with fog, and has been since we arrived. I’ve missed the dark winter days of Scandinavia. Its so cozy and peaceful. I miss it even more now that im here if you can believe it!

I’m currently blogging from my phone as i didnt want to lug my laptop around with me. I hope this works so i have easier access to blogging on the go. Anyone else ever use their phone for blogging?

I wont be loading camera pics while im away, but i actually love to just include phone pics because its easier sometimes and makes a nice change ya’ know?

Packed suitcases
Ready to go!
Man on phone
We caught the bus to Denver from Laramie.
Boots
Waiting at the gate. Denver ti London, Heathrow.

We arrived a few days ago but it took about two or three days to get over the jet lag. Yesterday we went to Kolding to see mormor, morfar and farmor. We also did some christmas shopping and had pizza for dinner at the mall with my mum. It was a great day but we were completely exhausted .. our body clocks are running on empty. I visited my favourite shops and got a few goodies in the clearance. I will never buy full price if i can avoid it.

Airport
I played with my little camera and did a few timelapses along the way. Im curious to see how they turned out.
Cowboy
Big as Texas.
Picture of a picture
Ive starting playing with polaroids and i love it. Here is one of my favourites. I bought a camera that takes them for a great price and the results are very satisfying.

I utterly stuffed my face with as much ryebread as physically possible since i got here. Its a little disgusting hahaha. I wish i could eat it everyday at home but i can’t bake it successfully yet, especially in Wyoming with the altitude.

Crisps and soda
We had a 7.30hr layover in Heathrow and i was able to get some old favourites. Hot monster munch and pink lucozade!

The trip here was awful, i wont pussyfoot about it. Terrible! There was a baby with the shits onboards and almost right next to us so the air was tainted in baby poo… imagine smelling the same baby shit for 9 hours. I was livid. Said baby also cried the entire way. We have bwen lucky with our trips to Dk but this one was shite. The lady next to Jack was practically in his lap, and completrly crazy, the whole time and we only managed to get to the bathroom once when she ventured awat muttering sweet nothings to herself.

Home for christmas
Finally home in Denmark.

But we had no real delays or issues. It was pretty painless. My film for my polaroid was destroyed evem though i requested them to hand check it but it was still put through the xray. But oh well!

Today we spent a lovely day in Bogense where i bought some Danish childrens book and a Norwegian christmas book. I also got some 100% wool yarn and cotton/linen yarn on sale. There are two lovely yarn shops in Bogense with beautiful wool yarn in stunning shades but they were very expensive. When i get paid maybe i could buy some. Its the type of yarn i wish i could in the USA but i still havent found it there yet.

 

Anyway, i must leave you as i am getting tired. With any luck you’ll get to go gome for Christmas too. God jul!

Thanks for reading!

 

 

a regular calamity jane #2

I recently made griddle cakes or at least i tried to make them.
They could easily have be used as weapons in a town that wasn’t big enough for everyone.
No i didn’t read the instructions.
I had assumed these griddle cakes were supposed to be the same size as biscuits.
They’re supposed to be american pancake size-ish not hockey puck size.
If you ever get a chance to have one of my griddle cakes — you will be full for a week.
Believe me.
So… they’re perfect for the trail if you’re close to starvation at any rate but they’re definitely not for those with weak teeth or dentures.
But hot damn, they look so tasty!
#dendanskecowpige


 

novels, 100 subscribers & future plans

Well it’s that time of year again where people become greedy and start really getting in my way in the grocery shop, vexing me to no bloody end. Why must you stop right at the f**king exit? I will go through you and you will roll like a bowling pin.
Happy Fecking Christmas everybody.


Christmas is probably my favourite time of the year, because i get to whack out all my danish Christmas decorations and i can pretend i’m home in Denmark; that my family are just down the road.
So far i feel so very productive. I reached my g0al of 100 subscribers on youtube, which i set for myself last month. It was something that i wanted to accomplish before the end of 2018.  I’m so glad that you all enjoyed my first vlog, it was a lot of fun to try and i’m planning my next one. I was going to film it last Friday but ended up working that day. So next week hopefully!
And those of you who follow me on instagram know that i just finished writing a short novel i’ve been working on for about a 1.5 years. It’s such a bizarre feeling that i’m finished telling that story, it sucks that its a little too short to be a stand alone novel but i’ve decided to write a collection of short stories instead. And that’s really exciting! ( i was always told by teachers not to start sentences with “and” but fuck it, i like to live dangerously.)
The fact that i’m done with a story means i desperately want to publish it right this minute, however, i don’t want to rush this kind of project. Bearing my heart in those pages means i have to do it right, even if that means waiting till other stories are finished being told.

Sadly all the snow has decided to melt even though its cold as balls outside, boo! So filming has been put off for The Outlaw and the Ranger till the snow returns — which it will, i will finish this project before we leave, by god! Until then we’re fixing the behind the scene works and the tech, thats just as important as the acting itself. Equipment is being sorted, music written, wardrobe situated and script writing.  I’d be lying if i said this wasn’t part of the dream. It is. Jack and i are actors, this is what we do best. I’ve tried acting in the USA in random places and so far  — well thats a whole other blog post that i’ll write one day.
Anyway, this is what we do.
I can’t wait till we can get more actors on board for future work when we have our own land in Texas, but for right now its just us and the music man. This will help us figure out the kinks and get the basics down on what we want to do and become. We’ve even started discussing names for the eventual company we’d like to start, its all in the works. It’ll be hard and we’ll get knocked back, but it’s all learning and living.
I will say its quite hard to balance everything, but i’m enjoying the process of finding out.


“Little by little, the look of the land changes by the men we admire.”
― Larry McMurtry.🌿