bad lungs

Hey everyone.
I officially received my accepted letters through email today, which was nice! I was starting to grow a little concerned they were going to forget. Looking through the attachments i grew a little anxious due to unforeseen payments i’ll have to make, that weren’t listed on their website, but living in America i’ve learned to always expect to have to attend to hidden payments for absolutely everything — doesn’t mean it doesn’t bum me the hell out every time, know what i mean? Im not saying its only America — it could just as well happen in Denmark too.
Either way — i can’t wait to get started, as i’ve been saying for a long time now.

I’ve been lucky enough to have been off from work since Thursday. I took my free day on Friday — it was a Christmas gift from work that we could take one day off in the year without it counting towards our severely meagre vacation or sick time. On top of that today was Martin Luther King day and so was also a day off from work; so i got a good four days off and it was almost perfect, definitely needed. Unfortunately today i’ve spent in utter pain. Unable to move without shooting pains in my lungs and chest. Im stubborn as a mule, and likely equally stupid when it comes to advice — i refused a trip to the emergency room and a visit to the doctor, because i know they’ll want to run any test they can even if its unnecessary. If i were in Denmark or in Texas — i’d have gone, but i will NOT pay for medical help unless i’m at deaths door if I’m in neither place. However, i’ll ask Jack to go if he’s not feeling well. Haha. I’m dreading a very tough day tomorrow if i don’t feel any better. I have time for one sick day but i don’t want to use it unless it’s an emergency or something. This is exactly why i hate this kind of lifestyle — i don’t like having to be accountable to someone else and have someone else decide what i can and can’t do. It doesn’t bode well for my soul. How do i get through it? I remind myself that its temporary.
Bring on 2020 when i start a new path!

Needless to say, today i’ve been immobile and useless. I genuinely struggle to sit and do nothing, i cannot do it! As we all do when we know we have days off coming up, i had plans and things i’d like to get done. I wanted to start working on my Denmark video, write some and read some. I wanted to pack and so many other things. I got a lot of cleaning done, worked out and edited a few photos, we even ventured out into the baltic night last night to film time-lapses videos, but I’m never satisfied, do you know what i mean? I want everything on my list completed to feel like i accomplished something. We both managed to catch up on some rest from our trip though, finally — and really thats what we really needed.

girl in cowboy hat

my new camera and a ride around town

Hello!
I hope you’re all doing well and enjoying the month of Christmas so far. I’ve already bought myself a Christmas present in the form of a new camera and i also haven’t completely devoured my advent calendar yet…. which is very very rare. Buying the camera absolutely was not planned. At all. I had decided to try and buy it next year but clearly that didn’t happen. I bought my other camera last year. You can read about the short post here. 

a cold Friday night in Laramie taken with new camera
a cold Friday night in Laramie.

Last night i sat and stared at my blog pretty much all night, wanting to write but i just felt so lousy. I haven’t been feeling well lately and it’s starting to grate on me pretty hard, but today is a new day and i’m feeling a wee bit better. Since moving to Laramie my skin has become an enormous platform for painful pustules. I’m not sure if its the water or if i’m allergic to something but my face and neck are in almost constant pain, and with the terrible headaches i get — it makes day to day a little tough; especially at work. I can sit and write no matter what my body is doing usually, but working and paying attention is another thing.

a purple sundown in wyoming
a beautiful evening

Anyway, I was actually surprised how great this camera works in lowlight — i’ll still be using my main camera but its a relief to have such a great little camera for quick use and so forth. I took the above picture last night after work. The light in the distance is the light from down town and the rail road, otherwise it was almost entirely black as death outside.

visitor center
the prison musem

Today i brought the camera with me as we ran a few errands around town. The pictures are surprisingly lovely and filming with it is incredibly easy. There are still a few kinks i have to figure out but the camera is very straight forward. I decided a while ago that i wanted to buy a new camera specifically for vlogging and also to have something small when i don’t feel like carrying around all my heavy equipment. This camera is pocket sized and does a great job, although its weird to use a MUCH smaller camera that isn’t as fancy as my big Nikon. Usually on Cyber Mondays or black Fridays i don’t buy anything but i couldn’t resist the deal this time around. With the horseshoeing school that i’ll be attending next year i wanted an easy camera to carry during the day, and this is perfect.

advertising sign
We drove to the Prison museum to take a look around and buy a few things that caught our eye when we first came to town. It was quiet and there was hardly anyone around today which was lovely. With all the games and events at the university sometimes town goes game crazy and it isn’t worth the effort to leave the house. On our way back from the Prison museum we stopped by the barn i’ll eventually be riding at, and possibly trimming hooves at if all goes to plan. I wanted to show Jack some of the horses and point out the big handsome draft, but they were all wrapped up inside or around the back so it’ll have to wait for another day. Oh i really can’t wait to start there! Senior horses are the best. Until i have my own farm i’ll take what i can get.

Irish-Scotsman from Texas outside the visitor center
We picked up some souvenirs.
girl in car
i love the lighting in this picture and the quality is pretty damn great!

Between the errands we also took a short trip an edge of town we hadn’t seen before. Sometimes all you need to keep on living is a “back to reality” check with nature. Nature…It has a way of showing you how minor your problems are in the long run, how little things truly matter and that things are temporary — theres a good chance they’ll get better.

wyoming plains
the snowy wyoming plain

I truly love the west, its hard for me to describe exactly what it is about it that has me so captured. It’s also strange to love two places so completely at the same time and have them both build you up to the person you are. We’ll be in Denmark soon and i can’t imagine what it’ll be like to be somewhere so far away from here. Sometimes the trip back to Europe hits me hard; it hits home how far i am from everyone and everything i once knew. How far from “easy” and “familiar” i am.  Nevertheless, i can’t wait to see my family and see pretty Denmark at Christmas time again. Just speaking Danish and hearing Danish voices around me will be magical. I hope to go to the forest a lot too. In Scandinavia you’ll find the most magical and peaceful forests you could imagine and a sea that isn’t worth taming.

happy couple
the sun was in his eyes, but he’s still handsome

I’m sure i’ve mentioned it before, but one of the things i’m trying to figure out is how to stop losing quality when i upload a video. I don’t know what i’m doing wrong; whether its transferring from SD card to Mac or if its during the exporting i’m messing up… I’ve read about it, asked about it and researched it but i’m still utterly clueless what the issue is. If anyone has any advice or suggestions i’m open to help and suggestions! I’m actually not at all tech savvy sadly… settings and exporting are apparently not my forte.

I hope you enjoyed my post and thank you all for reading.
I appreciate you.
Have a wonderful rest of your weekend.

what i do when i disappear

Its been a few days since i wrote on the blog. I haven’t been particularly busy but i occasionally enjoy turning off from social media and emails. Actually i enjoy it quite a lot. I refuse to depend on technology, having it rule every inch. No sir, i wont be a part of that. The only real social platform i like through and through is blogging — i really enjoy reading about others and the parts of their lives they decide to share. Do you have a favourite blog? Let me know in the comments!

Anyway, this is what i did when i was off the grid.

jack rabbit tracks in the snow

I wore my favourite wellington boots in the snow and stood in the sunshine, living it up to the max.

this is the sweater i’m currently working on, it’s a Danish variation of the Norwegian traditional sweater with closure clasps.

I knitted for hours and hours and hours and hours etc.

pink lemonade infused water with a whole grain cheese and bell pepper thin.

I had quiet lunches watching Danish tv, specifically a show called “Doggystyle” which is pretty damn good.

beginnings and hope and onwards.

I followed the sunshine as it swung from East to West.

light snow flakes and ready for a saturday evening run

I went for a run in the snowy evening.

the same shade of red as the danish flag <3

I appreciated a fence, because paint-faded anything is worth a second look. Couldn’t you just image a bunch of nutty kids running past this fence on their way to a scary-ass adventure that turns into the next best seller? I would be the redhead kid that was stronger than an ox and twice as ornery.

We took a drive through Albany county to see the sleepy mountains under their blankets of snow and clouds.

And thats what i did.
I dreamt about writing and ghost stories and where the birds go at night. Tomorrow it’s back to work, but this week is a three day week and that means two extra days of utter bewildering freedom of no bras or tied up hair. No unflattering trousers or button up shirts. Thats the life. What do you do when you go off the grid?

Have a great week, sugar.
Be free and find happiness in a candle light.
It all counts.